I sit on the floor naked a cushion between my legs. It is torn at the seam. White fluff already threatens to escape. I press it against my body and my trunk instantly turns into a giant mouth - hairy, vulvic, uterine, anal, from the guts, all at once. It is open, animated, full, bursting and spitting. A miniature cactus stands by my side, looking on. While one hand attends to the aperture of the mouth to prevent it from closing, the other travels in, reaching deep inside. It rummages, searches and seeks among the soft, spongy padding. What? It doesn’t know… Anything that is not soft, spongy padding, I guess. Anything I would be surprised to find there. I will know to the touch. There’s one! Carefully as if not to cause discomfort or rip the skin-like fabric, I draw from inside out various artefacts.

 

They are objects, usually at hand, simply laying around…..
A wooden spoon

A toy indoor football attached to a red string and clamp

Shalumith Firestone’s The Dialectic of Sex 
 

I rest for a while, but Mouth was still full and tender, it wanted to push, to speak. Soon, it contracted, so I went in slowly once again. This time, I pulled out keyboards, laptops, mobile phones, cables, tables and chairs, plates, more feminist books, Preciado’s Testo Junkie and Countersexual Manifesto, Baraitser’s Maternal Encounter, Ahmed’s Queer Phenomenology and Living A Feminist Life, Rich’s Of Women Born, Ruddick’s Care Ethics, paintings and sculptures, Monet’s Olympia, Courbet’s The Origin of the World, Duchamp’s Étant donnés and readymades, Louise Bourgeois’ and Tracey Emin’s art, Carolee Schneemann’s Fuses and Interior Scroll, porn, Avengers, Grand Design, contemporary living, what does it mean? massive house extensions, kitchen island and decked garden, making lists, conversations, words that stick and whisper, the internet, pills, period pads, realms of paper, notebooks, scribbles, making lists, pencils and pens, highlighters, sellotape, cups of tea, spaghetti bolognese and beans on toast, another wooden spoon (?), Google, Alexa, Netflix, Xbox, Grand Theft Auto, Zoom, Microsoft Office, junk, bags of trash, making lists, Aldi, BBC radio 4, Deliveroo, wine o’clock, tattooed eyebrows and dog biscuits, ‘hard-working families’, MILF’s, masks, hand gel and skin allergy, the withdrawal of British and US troops from Afghanistan, making lists, Whatsapp, Facebook and emails, TikTok, climate change, Love Island and Gogglebox, Brexit, Partygate, 3 million bodies decimated, 24hr News, institutional racism, work-life balance, tropes of inclusivity, tiny wages, absent mobility, making lists, spit, shit, piss and blood and vomit, headaches, confusion, despair, endings, persistently, relentlessly… Sitting down, getting up, sitting down, getting up, sitting down, making lists, rushing, making lists, time ticking, making lists, not having time, making lists, just managing, making lists, just failing, making lists, overwhelmingly… saturated

 

Tactile viscosity.